I've been having a lot of vivid dreams lately. I go for a long time having insipid, ho-hum dreams, then I'll go through a spell of having dreams that stay with me once I get up and fully awake.
Last night, I dream I lived with one of my lovers. She had ten children of her own and seven more that she took care of. We lived in a very nice house where there was plenty of room for everyone.
However, I was restless, feeling like a caged animal. She and I decided to seek counseling to try to work out our differences.
My father sat there with me in the counselor's waiting room; it was apparently important to him that I go. The wait was long and boring, and I felt myself growing antsier and feeling more trapped as the minutes slowly ticked by.
Finally, I got up, saying I didn't feel well and that I was going to the bathroom. Instead, I left the building and returned home. The front door was standing wide open when I got there, but after I ascertained that there was nothing missing, I went to lie down and take a nap.
That's all I remember of the dream.
Thoughts?
It sounds like you are being weighted down somewhat by responsibilities for
making a whole lot of people happy? The wife is the primary with the
others in various levels of responsibility that you feel towards them. You
didn't necessarily abdicate responsibility, just escaped for awhile. Hmmm,
maybe time to take a break?
Dreams often imitate life. I know that the theme of most of mine lately
has either been desperation or hopelessness.
It means you will have 17 years of a stifling situation, then leave it and
life will be wide open, which will be a little worrisome, but ultimately
you'll adjust. And then fall into a coma.